This weekend I am feeling extremely selfish about two things. First, and this is awful to ask for, (well, they both are) my dearest friend was due the 13th and I am so afraid emotionally that she'll go into labor and/or have her baby on the 16th. And second, that my ailing grandmother won't survive the weekend.
My heart can't handle either of these this weekend. And it's so selfish to ask God for these things to not happen just yet. But I just can't take either of them, not this weekend. These two thoughts have kind of broken me down over the past week.
I like to think I've got a lotta love to give, but it's thoughts and moments like this that make second guess what I'm capable of giving right now.
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