Money money money

I was just telling a friend that I feel like Julia Roberts from Pretty Woman. The part where she pulls wads of cash out of the jacket pockets and complains, crying, that she has all this money but nowhere to spend it. We're not exactly rolling in the dough, but we have made leaps and bounds financially, even this year after losing Korbin. Promotions, raises, paying off debts. Even with continuing to dig ourselves out of the debt hole we were in, paying off large debts, we still have a growing savings for the first time ever. And we don't need to rely on it either. It feels strange, but is a huge weight off of our shoulders.
Part of me feels like, whoopty doo. We're doing great financially but there's no kid to take care of with it. When I was pregnant there were some things I just told myself we'd figure out, but we were unsure how we'd make it work. Like day care, or covering medical insurance. Now we have that all figured out...but we don't need to worry about. It's bittersweet, really. I basically worried for nothing.
But, I guess that means we can do more now than before. Travel more, provide more of the things we want to provide to our future children. Things we wanted to provide to Korbin but were unsure we could at the time. We can also do more for others, something I've always been wanting. It used to be hard to pick which charity we'd support each year as there are so many we feel strongly about. Now we can expand on that, pick more and give more. And that feels good. For instance, since we don't have a baby to buy gifts for, we're going to 'adopt' a child for Christmas this year.
Despite the constant pain, life is moving forward, and upwards in some respects. And with it, we got a lotta love to give.