Two nights ago, P bit me five times in a row. It really hurt and I had to tell him no very sternly. And then he ended up just crying himself to sleep in my arms.
Oh, what a tough ride it's been since that moment. He has only nursed twice since then. Only letting himself get close enough so his lips touch and arching his back away from me and crying. And it totally breaks my heart. I don't want him to think he can't nurse any longer. I am far from ready for that. And yet he's resisting now and I can't force him to nurse if he's not willing to.
This has made me rethink my nursing goals and what the true goal is. My goals have been to make it at least a year (so close, so close!), and then beyond to 13.5mo (adjusted age of one year), and ideally two years old even if only first thing in the morning and at bed time. Two days ago I was feeling so happy and confident of thr one year and even 13.5mo goals. Easy, right? P was still nursing 5-6 times per day, in the least. Now, who knows if he'll make it to 13.5mo?
It is so emotional for me. I miss the connection and bonding. I miss him needing me so much. He still comes up to me as though he does, but then pushes me away.
I am so not ready for this. So completely not ready for my baby to not be a baby any more. It honestly breaks my heart, which is probably just the hormones talking. But oye is it rough!
I just need him to need me still.
Beacause I got a lotta love to give.
CAN PURPOSE OF FAITH DENIERS BE SAVED? BY STEVE FINNELL
ReplyDeleteIs it possible to have faith in Jesus but deny the purpose of faith and still be saved?
John 8:22-24.....24 'Therefore I said to you that you will die in your sins; for unless you believe that I am He, you will die in your sins."
Jesus told certain Jews that unless they believed that He was the Son of God that they would die in their sins. The question remains, if the Jews said "We believe you are the Son of God, however, that is not essential to the forgiveness of sins;" would their sins still be forgiven? CAN YOU DENY THE PURPOSE OF FAITH AND STILL HAVE YOUR SINS FORGIVEN?
John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall perish, but have eternal life.
Is it reasonable to assume that men can say, "We believe that Jesus is God's Son and the Savior of the world, however, that has nothing to do with us receiving eternal life," and that they will still be saved? CAN MEN DENY THE PURPOSE OF FAITH AND STILL RECEIVE ETERNAL LIFE?
Acts 16:29-31 And he called for lights and rushed in, and trembling with fear he fell down before Paul and Silas, 30 and said "Sirs, what must I do to be saved?" 31 They said, "Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved, you and your household."
If the Jailer had told Paul and Silas that he would believe as an act of obedience and a testimony of his faith, but that believing had nothing to do with his salvation; would the jailer have been saved? CAN MEN DENY THE PURPOSE OF BELIEVING IN THE LORD JESUS AND STILL BE SAVED?
CAN THE PURPOSE OF WATER BAPTISM DENIERS BE SAVED?
Is logical to assume you can be baptized in water, but deny its purpose and still be saved?
Acts 2:38 Peter said to them, "Repent and be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins; and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit.
What are the probabilities that if the three thousand on the Day of Pentecost had told Peter, "We will be baptized, however, it is not in order to have our sins forgiven," would their sins still be forgiven? CAN MEN DENY THE PURPOSE OF WATER BAPTISM AND STILL HAVE THEIR SINS FORGIVEN.
Acts 22:12-16....16 Now why do you delay? Get up and be baptized, and wash away your sins, calling on His name!
What if Saul had told Ananias, "I had my sins washed away on the road to Damascus, but I will be baptized as an act of obedience and as a testimony of my faith," would Saul's sins have been washed away? CAN MEN DENY THE PURPOSE OF WATER BAPTISM AND STILL HAVE THEIR SINS FORGIVEN?
Ephesians 5:25-27... just as Christ loved the church gave Himself up for her, 26 so that He might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word, 27 that He might present to Himself the church in all her glory, having no spot or wrinkle or any such thing; but that she would be holy and blameless.
What if men were to say that Christ washed the church with water, however, it had nothing to do with, sanctifying her, cleansing her, making her spotless, or rendering her holy and blameless? CAN MEN DENY THE PURPOSE OF WATER BAPTISM AND STILL RECEIVED ITS BENEFITS?
1 Peter 3:20-21 ....safely through the water. 21 Corresponding to that, baptism now saves you....
Is it plausible for men to proclaim that they were baptized in water, but it played no part in their salvation?Can they still be saved? CAN MEN DENY THE PURPOSE OF WATER BAPTISM AND STILL BE SAVED?
IS IT POSSIBLE FOR MEN TO DENY THE PURPOSE OF FAITH AND WATER BAPTISM AND STILL BE SAVED?
Mark 16:16 He who has believed and has been baptized shall be saved..... CAN YOU DENY THAT AND STILL BE SAVED?????
(All Scripture quotes from: NEW AMERICAN STANDARD BIBLE)
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